pictures or whatever.

My waffle has offically been roffled

Sean: Whats up?
Jody: not much
Sean: thats good... hows life in oxford?
Jody: fine.. busy
Sean: yeah.. busy seems to be the theme of everyone but me.
Jody: get on it
Jody: you've only got one life to waste
Sean: and I waste it well!
Jody: haha
Jody: that's my boy
:D

What else... I got my band uniform yesterday, its really slick; black slacks, black buttondown poly/cotton blend, white tie and misc. accessories. But um.. I heard the rest of the day that I'd have to return my tie, because the valid colors, as stated in announcement email, are red, blue, green and silver..

Naturally, I was disappointed, I mean... I bought the coolest white tie, that I spent about a half an hour looking for... so.. I complained alot... but it didnt change anything. even though when we "voted" I was the one who suggested button-down shirts, and solid ties, and even choosing the tie color... but noooooooo.... he *MaGiCaLlY FoRgOt* that I asked for black-through-white to be included.. which is the only reason silver was even in there.. silver ties are generally ugly.. pewter/grey ties are probably what everyone is going to end up getting as "silver" anyways..

And the best part is.. even if I cant wear my white tie(under pain of not being able to play :rolls eyes: boo hoo..) I could still choose to wear, pea green, magenta, bright silver or pastel blue, chartrouse even, and it'd still qualify as "green"... but white NOOOOooooo... of COURSE NOT...

grr... white looks so fuckin' classy too..

anyways.. so I'm probably going to get my signature "fresh-blood-fuck-you-red" in the best hue possible to fit that phrase...

Oh well... life could be worse right?

Current Music : Kristine Sa - Real Emotion sans intro and all other subversed melodies, chorus only please.

This week in MyLand
I will only use that header once.
I will only use that header once.
I will only use that header once.
I will only use that header once.

oh! sorry. :) I was making sure I stay original.

This week.. has been dumpy. I've been going to sleep and waking up at all hours, and everything I do is boring.. or really boring... its just like, "oops! this isnt working anymore! time to fix my life plan!"

I try to do things that used to make me happy, like play videogames, and sleep in, but all of that doesnt really smack in my mouth with the same robust flavor of sweet success it used to, I guess thats due to the looming shadow of impending college and other civic responsibilities.. it all cant be THAT bad, eh?

I mean, plenty of people have survived before me.. now all I need to do is... survive, be successful, not go stark raving mad.. and somehow still leave enough room to have my spiritual affairs in order... although, those should go in first as they prerequisit all other things.. and with them, everything falls into place.

Enough about life though, everyone has one, they're all heavy and ominous, I'm just trying to describe whats on my mind.

In new-aged spam e-mail style.. I will list my thoughts and anxieties in no order. these are delicate to perception, and just because you know what I'm thinking doesnt mean you know how I'm thinking it. so enjoy, cautiously...

life is a subpar annoying stressful moral ethically messy museum of psuedo-religion pooples.

pooples means I dont like what I'm writing. so... I'll write it more different.

life stressful, trying to be happy, but still working, girl is cute, trying to get to know her, and trying to get to know myself, understand my own anxieties before I jump into someone else's with my own in tow, and expect her to carry me, that ship would sink.

I'm content but always doubtful, restless and still lazy, trying to figure out what and how and then trying to do it, slothfulness becomes me, the years are creeping away from me, and with them my chances for massive successfulness... I need to get up and go.

[/pooples]

So what if I dont like any of that... its informative.. and thats good. I guess.

Mouth/brain+Restless/Rambling

:o|

Current Music : Chemical Brothers - Setting sun

C is for Computadora

This is your
LOL
of the day


Current Music : Black Mages - Those who fight further

Stoop to my level ;)
that is, if you can reach it.

I love humans, they're all silly-bear poopadoodles :D

All you people running around like ants when my foot steps in your mediocre day.

heeheeeeee.

come play my game. stoop to my level, please.

me and my fake poetry and prose, its all a facade of maturity :P

:D

Always good for a wheeze to be insulted on the internet.

I call it the insulternet-o-matica.... or something like that.

Suckaaz

Current Music : Postal Service - Sleeping in

Bump!
(reposted)


I don't need to eat all day long, 'cause I know I'll be seeing you.
When we meet, I feel so complete, and its all because of you.

I can go for hours without a thought, or even days without sleep.
and though I try, I cant deny, you're the one for me.

With you I feel so happy, you are a light in my sweeping night.
I doubt I would, but I feel I might, die if you leave my sight.

When you're around, I want nothing else: a part of me is fulfilled,
So be with me, and then you'll see, that you are all I need.

I love being with you and I hope to god to stay,
But when you're away, at the end of the day, I get hungry again

Current Music : Modest Mouse - Conveniant Parking

I'm not the dark center of the universe
>:]

So, Today I'm here to announce that my links are pretty much solidified, these are blogs I will associate myself with.

today:
Mr. Hallman: "Now, for those quarter-notes I'd like you to get on the back-side of the beat"
Sean : "OK." [quietly to other high brass: "I was on the backside of stephen's momma last night :D"]
pwnted.

This is why I love jody's journal:

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 23.
3. Find the 2nd sentence.
4. Post the text of the sentence in your journal.


mien:
Let it never be forgotten that cultists are experts at lifting texts out of their respective contexts, without proper concern for the laws of language or the established principles of Biblical interpretation.

Walter martin Kingdom of the Cults

:D I'm happy.

In addition to my list of good things Jody has benefited me with... I was cleaning her room for the LAN party, so miki would have a place to sleep, and I happened upon her untouched CD collection, as well as a stack of CD's taken from the now disbanded K-A.P.U.... thievery insued. and I thank her for such music as, the Weakerthans, no motiv, no knife and other vagrant records hoes.

good stuff.

Current Music : Modest mouse - Night on the sun

Carpe Diem
or whatever.

You exist only in the present,
The future is not guaranteed,
This is just a reminder,
We're not Gods.

There is no tomarrow,
Make yourself today,
If you cant change the world today,
You probably wont tomarrow,

So forge ahead and try every day,
Live every day like you'll live forever,
And yet, like its your last and final act,
A last moment to maximize into your minimal future.

There is no outcome without chance,
It falls to luck, or fate, whichever you believe in.
All you need to know is that if you cant, you will never,
And if you wont, you'd better make yourself, because you'll die either way.

And its what you did in the time that you were given that changes things,
Live in faith, take a leap of faith daily, hey you, I dare you, yes you,
I'm talking to me, yeah, I heard you, you'd better try today, or you'll fail,
Alright I, I'll tell myself to get on it, No you, not tomarrow, today me.

So, we'll do it, soon.

Maybe tomarrow.

Current Music : Esthero - Superheroes

****

I mistook ignorance for reverence
I mistook tolerance for patience
I mistook the emotional for the spiritual
and now I have nothing

I hate this
I hate this world
I hate this
I hate this life
I hate this
I hate this life of mine
I hate this
I hate this world of mine

Should I leave it all behind?
Or burn it to the ground
and dance on the ashes

Could I build something better on the rubble?
Or would I just be indulging my pyromania?

If I didnt hate it so much would I be happy?
Or would I just hate everything else?

If I knew everything, could I fix it?
Or would I still be lost?

If I didnt care could I walk through the fiery trials?
Or would my apathy render it meaningless?

Can I become renewed in faith?
Or do I have to remake myself?

Is God reading this?
Or did he see it coming out of my mind?

Can he see what I'm going to do next?
At the current pace, I might just live.
But I cant stand the meaninglessness of life.

I stay alive to be alive and then die someday,
And that purpose alone isnt enough to live.
I try to learn "God's way" but I stumble,
When'll he answer?

A need for faithfulness starts here,
But I've been faithless so long.

I give all I've got and I give more,
And I give when I'm hurting until I'm hurting even more,
And where's my return?

Do I have to die before all of the secrets are revealed?
Or is the answer printed on thin sheets in a black book?

What am I?
What am I supposed to do?

Current Music - DJ Taka - Colors

Alright, so maybe not four times as long.
But I'll get pretty close.

For those of you who didnt get that, read my last post below this beefy and well thought out post. :D

So I was thinking just now when I was on the can, that the affect that massive multiplayer gaming has on this generation will either be incredibly bad, or not at all.. I'm no psychologist, but this generation has seen more advancements in computers and technology than any other, and its putting pretty much every kid under 18 on a computer to play pretty much any game his heart pleases and his parents can afford. so maybe, just maybe, this is a bad thing.

It could be really good. Who knows.

and the only thing I have to say about that thought is, "what you just saw floating by was all of the thoughts that I never speak, flushed from the toilet of my mind" ~ me

After that, I had ryan over late yesterday after everyone went home, including him, to get some sleep. We played some good soul calibur II, which was pretty boring :P mostly just the bosses and dungeons and shit, but there was this one challenge I got all intense over.. If you know how I play games you'll know it was a speed challenge, I played as Voldo, my usual.

And again, I left. and I come back without any inspiration. *sigh*

maybe later ;)

Current Music : The Black Mages - Dancing Madly

Weekly Updated
Sort of.

This is the longest I've missed in awhile, but I'm not going to be like "OH MY GOD, I MISSED FOUR DAYS" and then miss like.... a month.

Its all about consistancy, thats what I always said. Old jack palmer used to say what the hell, but old jacks' not here.

YESSAHHH

Ok, so I had a physical monday, I keep wanting to say yesterday, because I was awake from monday morning into last night, so monday was technically a part of 'yesterday'.. anyways, the doctor was nice.. he went on for awhile about not getting an STD.. and not doing drugs or smoking... and then he asked me if I wanted a hernia test, and I was like... um.. yeah, no, I'll pass on that. at least I didnt have to get it like poor jovanni, he got it from this old indian guy, and he was like 'turhn joor hed an coff'... heh.

So monday went good.. I had my LAN party... significantly less people showed up than I expected, Doug, Randy and Josh. I almost invited Pat.. but wow.. yeah.. I dodged a bullet there. Maybe next time I'll set up the Playstation stuff a little better, so that those who like PS games more can do that, and then the PC people can LAN their hearts out.. either way, we still had 6 :) and thats a good number considering our hub holds 8, and I invited 8.

We played The Specialists most of the night, that was fun.. I was trying not to try, and trying not to win.. but oh well.. :D a few maps I owned. I found a good compromise: Using the .22 silenced ruger, it shoots BB's practically, and I REALLY had to try to get and kills with it against 12 gauge mossbergs and .50AE Desert Eagles.

Its all good though.

After that we played some TFC... short and sweet, everyone (other than me and miki) got sick of it fast, because the graphics are old, and its a rather limited game.

Me and miki are the killingest sniper team ever.. I spot and do close range stuff, and she gets those 2 mile shots. Turkeyburgers- An oversized room for those who dont know, and by 'oversized' I mean "honey I shrunk the kids" oversized- was good.. we did ALOT of sniping, on 4 teams instead of the usual 2, so we had people changing teams and going independant and whatnot... I think everybody had a good time.

Soul Calibur II was surprisingly short-lived, its such a good game, and we didnt even get into it :( its fine though, I made up for it by playing for a few hours after miki, christian and steven left.. while cody and ryan were asleep.

The party ended for me when miki left :).. good times though with my 16-bit Honkey, Cody. We started a game of megaman and exploited some bosses with the m-buster. I love that game, especially with a partner. we still have the password to get to back where we were so thats good.

What else? While on games, I got some good TS skins :D those probably added to the party.. because of the interesting characters and stuff... Phattius Ruger and Sexually Experienced Squirrel... lol... so funny. But then again so is 255 seconds of infinite ammo with the MAC10 at 5am.

My lord. hansens energade is the *best* energy drink I've had. I drank it around 4am, and I didnt sleep until tuesday night.. my body still had its awful reprocussions today, but I was awake relatively painlessly all day tuesday.

and now.. I left this for an IM window, and I'm out of gas. Its a nice long post though.

Maybe you'll catch me again when I'm in a talkative mood, and I'll write a post four times this long.

Current Music : Dashboard confessional - Carry this picture

A New Social Ritual Amongst The Elite

If you've never been to a LAN Party, you haven't lived properly (or you suck at gaming). If you suck at gaming, dont despair, you can still go to a LAN party, jack in, and just sniff packets and write code and still have some fun. Or you can be the sysadmin and setup the networking or you can just handle the food and beverages (get me my Bawls!)

Ah, sweet LAN parties...The stimulating scent of caffeine, the verbal jousting, the smell of pepperoni lingering in the air, the floor a tangled infestation of cat 5, the neon lights of case mods poking through the scene like lasers in fog. Nothing quite like it. And when the gaming starts, everybody becomes so intense. One frag leads to the next, emotions wax and wane as gibs amass and levels change, here an unnamed player, there an elite commando with uncanny aim. Over time, the LAN party itself, a single organism, breathing, hunting....

Or something like that.
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Current Music : Modest Mouse - Paper thin walls

Closet space

This is where all of my lost hopes went.
This is the place that all of my dreams went to stay.
They flew off to take refuge here, In a far away place,
and now, never to be seen behind all of my technology

These are the things that made me dream dreams and reach for the very face of God,
these mere toys were the catalyst for limitless creativity.

And now, they're locked away, behind books, and clothes.

As I revisit this place, in the back of my closet,
I see all of the things that were so magical back in my younger years.

All of the things that seemed to be worth millions in my ignorance, and even now, in sentiment, have been depreciated to mere pennies. These things are useless and spent now, they are a part of the past.

And yet, they were so important to me then.

Soon they'll all be gone: I'll move them to an attic, or donate them to charity, and then this place will be filled with mature looking clothes. This is the place I'll hide my children's presents before christmas.

So, I gaze at all of these old toys, and see my past.
Because its moving out of memory and new things are moving in.
Time to fill it with what I need. What goes here?
~~

Cleaning my room now,
I've one week left to do it,
What else will I find?

Current Music : Modest mouse - You're the good things

F.Y.I.
mood : guilty

Alpha
Bravo
Charlie
Delta
Echo
Foxtrot
Golf
Hotel
India
Jenny
Kilo
Lima
Mike
November
Oscar
Papa
Quebec
Romeo
Sierra
Tango
Uniform
Victor
Whiskey
X-ray
Yankee
Zulu

**also**
I'm adding "current mood" to the top of each post.

Current Music : Modest Mouse - Interstate 8

LANius Caesar, Part III

Alright, T- 8 days, 16 hours, 5 minutes and 30 seconds until we all gather in my den of jolility and have us a good old LAN party.

We've done some planning [we, being me and I], and I came to some conclusions: The date WILL BE monday april 12th, you still need to RSVP with me if you havent. you know who you are.

Games:
Half-life;The Specialists, Counter-strike, Team Fortress and Natural Selection.
Starcraft: Broodwar

The Specialists(TS) is going to be our main staple, so these are all of the game modes I'm going to cook up..

+Pistols only 1vs1 with 'survival' ammo loadouts... when you reload once, you're out of extra ammo.

+Blades only 1vs1, probably on Dojo or Lobby, we'll match katana against katana and knife against knife, and make sure it stays that way unless some brave knifer wants to fight a katana, or some brave katana wants to go up against a throwing knife ninja.

+Kung Fu only, 1vs1, making sure that both players start with the same Health, and if one player has the Kungfu powerup, then get both it.

for all 1vs1 games, we'll have people outside the ring, and then when the a player wins, they can play on or leave the ring to get Health, but also giving up thier run. Weapon restrictions will be used to make sure that all players use specified weapons.

+Training, Probably only on ts_agility, but we'll be playing with a cease-fire, for those who need to learn basic movement.

+Last Man Standing, we'll probably play this on Half-life Death-Match(HLDM) maps, The last man standing is awarded points. We might throw in some weapon restrictions to get things rolling.

+Separate Areas, For larger maps like Lobby, that are more separated, we'll have one area dedicated to Blades, one to Kung fu and one to free-for-all weaponry, so that everyone can get a little of what they want.

+The One mode. Since TS's gametype for "the one" is totally messed up, we'll play teamed, one man VS everyone else. We'll see how long this lasts ;)

And last but not least
+Teamplay, with 2, 3 or 4 teams, Teams are specified by your Player model, and, along with the proper patches and installs for TS and HLDM, we'll have plenty of models for TS, so that everyone has an aesthetically pleasing selection of teams. Weapon restrictions may apply to teams, ie. Ninjas use Blades and Kung-fu, Agent Smith clones use Desert Eagles, Shinsengumi types use light pistols and blades.. etc.

So thats it for game modes, I hope your mouth is watering. Mine is.

p.s. I may add Homeworld to that short list of games, but that depends on if I can spawn copies of the disk I have, and if everyone's computer can support it.

Current Music : DJ Epic - Heaven is a place on earth

*cough*

Thank you 4.43.221.139 for 30 million hits.

You can go home now.

Current Music : DJ Sammy - Heaven

Vanguard
They're all leet.

So today I was with my school-band playing at vanguard university... I showed up early to see zephyr, our advanced ensemble. They played good. we did not. We did OK, but it still sucked on some parts. I dont know why, but despite getting soaking wet from rain afterwards, showing up late- and wet -to youth group, getting hardly any sleep last night, or hardly anything done today, there was something about playing at vanguard that made me happy.. I cant quite put my finger on it, but there was something there today, it definately wasnt this. well, it might've been.

I also borrowed joshes camera, and I've managed to take as many pictures in two days as he took in 6 months. What a shameful creature. He's had the camera a year now, and he's only gotten 400 pictures, any photophile would be absolutely nuts over this camera, and they'd probably manage to make the 256mg memory card seem small.. the only reason I didnt use the whole thing (I got to 203mg) is because I deleted some video off of it.

I also got some video of the bad-ass vanguard ensemble themselves, being bad-ass of course... they're really good. It made me weep.

And then tonight.
~
man OR mouseman: get some sleep, you're going to need it for jannett.
man OR mouseman: jannet around the plannett
RicoSuave IsHere: ohh please
man OR mouseman: plannet janneett
RicoSuave IsHere: whats that supposed to mean?
man OR mouseman: jannett the bannddiitt
man OR mouseman: its supposed to mean I've been awake for two days and janet is funny name.
man OR mouseman: janet khan: second cousin to kublai khan
RicoSuave IsHere: can I tell "Her" that you called her mommy janet the bandit.
man OR mouseman: alright.
man OR mouseman: thank you for letting me get some starrables. for to stare at. of the miki mcmikerson.
man OR mouseman: you poot
man OR mouseman: :P
RicoSuave IsHere: you mean ...
man OR mouseman: I see you typing
RicoSuave IsHere: "Tricky Miki"
man OR mouseman: haha
RicoSuave IsHere: I'm good
man OR mouseman: lets see..
RicoSuave IsHere: "His name may be sean but hes no body's pawn"
RicoSuave IsHere: fo-shizzle
man OR mouseman: chelsea. rhymes with scmhelsea
man OR mouseman: rhymes with, woman-who-needs-to-get-in-the-kitchen.
~
After that I got owned by the kenpo skills, he stared me down and told me he'd cancel the video transfer of all of the footage I shot at vanguard today, and people, that isnt acceptable. Neither is this.
~
Auto response from RicoSuave IsHere (12:48:48 AM): "Tricky Miki" is back again! Ahhh!!!!
~
Who is this guy, freeman?
Science team, I hear he was at ground zero.
All I know is he's been killing my buddies
Oh he'll pay, he will definately pay

Current Music : Hot Butter - Popcorn!

Eye Opener

Open your eyes
See all the love in me

I wont give up, not ever
Dont be afraid

Take all you need with me
And we'll be strong together

ohhh we'll be strong together
ohhh we'll be strong together

Current Music : Happy Hardcore - Eye Opener