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(Another semi-philosophical poem... somehow those two words shouldn't go together. Enjoy.)
Stress

Here we are, this loud day
Theres the tension, but we're here to stay.

We're here now with work to do,
We're working madly, how about you?

Life's a pain in the ass
Wash the dishes, clean the glass.

In all of that confusion
A larger problem looms;

Something dark fills the room.
It makes you feel so very small,
Puffing and sputtering, ready to stall

Whats that problem?
Its clear as day;
Its name is stress
And its here to stay.

~~
Eat that!

Current Music : Modest Mouse - Cold Part

Violation of rights

Violation of rights might soon become Law.

Thats right, the file transfer protest is still just as alive as the people trying to pass the laws..

Please read this in full. and then consider where you stand on the file-transfer issue.

Current Music : Legend of Mana - Humble Beginnings

I'm not here to tell you how to lead your life...

But if being your own man means laying down your rebelious shit and getting a job, then you'd better be ready to follow your 75 year plan.

Current Music : Again, none. I'm tired of making up shit and pretending I'm always listening to something good.

The Ace of Spades

Here I am another day, the clouds are bright, clear and grey
I hear the voices of my past, Crying out 'Til the last,
Alone again on this bright day, Alone again I think I'll stay,
For alone is where I ought to be, if darkness gets the best of me,

Alone again in this place of death, So very cold I can see my breath,
I remember ago in those days, this is where I used to play,
With a face who saw my twisted grin, In this place that holds my soul again,
Here was my heart stained black as sin, but ne'er will I walk here again.

Current Music : NONE!

Girly Hands

I'm such a sissy, but I love it...

I double-gloved my hands earlier when I was working with my mom mixing grout.. and then we used the same 3 step hand cream to moisturize... needless to say I have girly hands.. but I wouldnt have it any other way.

and now for a teaser...


"My longest day".

My name is Brandon Doyle, I'm a student at the new olivia university, you may've heard of it. Today was the longst day of my life. I am filled with regret when I reflect on all of the happenings of the last day... week.... month...

My name is Brandon Doyle, and I never thought I'd die on my birthday. I guess thats just the irony of life for ya'.
.Coming soon.

And now, for my third piece of content, an accurate discription of my hypathetical criminal mind..


No one would really know your name. You would be
called by what you do. For example, if you burn
your victims to death all the time, you would
be known as The Arsonist, or if you knife them,
you would be known as The Slasher. You would be
the mysterious killer who strikes at sporadic
times, and would be very difficult to catch.
You might dress up and mask yourself when you
perform your horrible killings. Your identity
would really be a mystery. Obviously you would
be wanted all over the place, and authorities
would desperately try to capture you. Even if
you were caught, you would not say much. The
public would greatly fear you because you could
just strike unexpectedly.


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Current Music : Ima Robot - 12=3

I'm sorry.


My life is rated NC-17.
What is your life rated?

Current Music : Modest Mouse - Third Planet

Blah the impaler
[Intellecutalist's cut]

I've been called alot of things:
Leader of men, A Big-time failure,
A freak, genius.

Like a bullet
Here it comes
Life and pain;
Life is pain
To live is to struggle,
To struggle is to live,
Living is a fight,
Life is a battle.

There is hope in... Love-
Love is another fight altogether
It envelopes when it succeeds, And it tears when it fails
Love is a fight, alot like life; a constant strife.. what is right?

Which way is Up? Down? To the liquor store?

Wheres the beef, Cigarettes, Love?

I stole your heart, TV, Soul.

I'm still tired of drama
Drama in the sense of overexaggerating what is,
And emphasizing what isnt,
Making things up takes some imagination.

Imagine, Lies and Truth, Love and Life.

All a fight, Mentally, Physically, Spiritually.

Answers?
The answer is..

Sanity? No
To be "sane" by the standards of culture is to be bound by chains of culture.

Insanity in the eyes of culture, Is to be sane in ones self.

To live your life the way you should... --stop

...Should, Is a relative phrase,
Throw in God or Law, And Should becomes a prison.

Totally man made, Stone like a gargoyle,
Impossible to escape and then life ends.

I'm running out of gas,
Like a plane falling fast,
Here comes the last...

Gasp for air,
Here and there,
Wheres the love?
Nowhere.

Not in this lifetime.

So live your life; People like an "individual"
Thats why most people like me, I'm a conformist

Conformed to the feral natures of my own mind- insanity
Here comes the vanity: People wearing masks.

Lovey-dovey, made up fantasies,
I'm a little solider. I'm a little princess.
Lets play house!

The curve-ball? Individuallity;
Seperete versions of reality
Or at least the percieved truth.

I want a solution,
A fast fix, Like rub on vicks,
Only for broken hearts and minds.

Ending,
End of time,
End of line,
End of transmission,
End of story.

Current Music : Robert Miles - Paths

Check your shoes at the door!

Because its barefoot day!!

At your schools, at your churches.. walk around no shoes on!!

People will think you're a wacko, but you're just open minded... WHEEE!


Current Music : Gang Starr - Rite where you stand

Pentium4, Black Tower seeking single white male.

Today was a longggg day, I had the CHSPT in the morning, and I went all over pomona, pasadena, azusa, fullerton and back.... sheesh... I'm getting well-paid, so who am I to complain?

After that, I just have this little gem of knowledge for everyone, from the forums.

Longtooth
Rank:Rookie
� Reply #13 on: November 15th, 2003, 10:14pm �

College is for fools....

mouse
Rank:Veteran
� Reply #14 on: November 15th, 2003, 11:56pm �

haha.... hahaha........ ahaahahaaaaahaaaaa....

Wait.. wait...... you're actually serious...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA

Current Music : Mr. Scruff - Fish

Mein test.

Tomarrow I take the CHSPT, which is my final test for highschool, if I succeed I'll gradute early as a junior.

Good luck to me.

I forgot!!

Waka waka.

Current Music : Danielson Familie - Rubbernecker

Sex and our City

I heard on the news tonight that during romance men are thinking about sex, and women are thinking about emotion and the future.

It really pissed me off to hear the phrase "one track mind" and "Thats the way men are" on television.

Once again I'm disappointed in our culture, and I'll tell you why-- Men shouldn't just be sex-fiends; its pointless.

Sex is about a relationship, and even if you take that out of context, it shouldn't be blamed on your own mentallity... Sure its a natural craving and a natural function, but its the way you use it..

If a man is only sexual in his romantic relationships then thats all he'll ever be. And when the sex runs out, he'll have nothing to do with his partner.

There are plenty of instances involving passionate relationships in which romance and sex are desired by both the man and the woman involved, but I dont think it should be purely sex. Because in the morning after, are they going to be comitted to each other? or is it going to be another shallow one night stand?

Our culture is pathetic, justifying these things... not to preach, so I'll include myself when I say shame on us. Woe to mankind; here we are doing everything wrong and blaming it on upbringing and genetics.. we've gotta get down to the nitty-gritty and ask what the hell is going on?

Figure it out people, we havent much time.

Current Music : Modest mouse - Exit does not exist

God

I feel like I should post this, its about procrastination.

So tonight I was praying and journaling, and God spoke to me.. heres my initial thought.. "I'll get more serious about my prayer time some other time, tomarrow probably."

And I heard him say right back,

"Time is valuable to me,
"In the same way the world veiws money,
"So I veiw debtors of time,
"Who are you to say that tomarrow belongs to you?
"I have given you today, will you give it back?
"Or will you say like a bad debtor 'a little longer, then I will pay.'? "

On that note, I'd just like to make a note, that Christ is the best thing that happened to a bum like me, for example I landed a few quick jobs, one working on my aunts' computer for her home business and the other working on my house.. I'm going to make ALOT of money off of those... and I know they came from God.. so thats cool.

Blah. I'm nuts.

I dont care though.

As long as I can find a woman who's as crazy as me.

Current Music : Modest Mouse - A different town

Blah the impaler
(clean edit)

They call me,
Leader of men,
Big-time failure,
The freak,
The man.

Here it comes,
Life,
Pain,
Life is pain,
To live is to struggle,
To struggle is to live,
Living is a fight,
Life is a battle.

There is hope in...

Love,
Love is another fight altogether,
It envelopes when it succeeds,
And it tears when it fails,
Love is a fight,
Alot like life,
A constant strife,
What is right?

Which way is,
Up?
Down?
To the liquor store?

Wheres the,
Beef,
Cigarettes,
Love?

I stole your,
Heart,
TV,
Soul.

I'm still tired of drama,
Drama in the sense of overexaggerating what is,
And emphasizing what isnt,
Making things up,
Takes some imagination.

Imagine,
Lies,
Truth,
Love,
Life.

All a fight,
Mentally,
Physically,
Spiritually.

Answers?
The answer,
Is..

Sanity?
No.
To be sane is to be bound by chains of culture.

Insanity in the eyes of culture,
Is to be sane in ones self.

To live your life the way you should...

Should,
Is a relative phrase,
Throw in God or Law,
And Should becomes a prison.

Man made,
Stone like a gargoyle,
Moan like stp,
Moen sinks for to vomit in.

I'm running out of gas,
Like a plane falling fast,
Here comes the last...

Gasp for air,
Here and there,
Wheres the love?
Nowhere.

Not in this lifetime.

So live your life,
People like an "individual".

Thats why most people like me, the Conformist.

Conformed,
To the feral natures of my own mind;insanity,
Here comes the vanity,
People wearing masks.

Lovey-dovey,
Made up fantasies,
I'm a little solider,
I'm a little princess,
Lets play house!

The curve-ball,
Individuallity,
Seperete versions of reality,
..Or at least percieved truth.

I want a solution,
A fast fix,
Like rub on vicks,
Only for broken hearts and minds.

Ending,
End of time,
End of line,
End of transmission,
End of story.

Current Music : Cowboy Bebop - Piano solo[Live]

Culture clash...

Chinese proverb says, The cautious seldom err.

While an american cynic says, To err is human, but to really screw things up requires a computer.

spank you, spank you very much.

This is the part where I randomly post lyrics..

Everyone's afraid of their own life.
If you could be anything you want I bet you'd be disappointed.
..am I right?

No one really knows the ones they love.
If you knew everything they thought I bet you'd wish that they'd just shut up.

Well you were the dull sound of sharp math when you were alive.
Not ones gonna play the harp when you die.
And if I had a nickel for every damn dime I might have half the time.
do you mind?

Everyone's afraid of their own life.
If you could be anything you want I bet you'd be disappointed.
am I right?

ranmafan1half: I know what you're trying to say, it's just not conforming to any established standard.
man OR mouseman: including logic and reason.
man OR mouseman: oh.. and reality.

Current Music : Modest Mouse - Lives

I'd hate to brag.. But my weekend was better than yours.

First off, my sister came down from azusa, and we all sat around playing megaman 6.. after that we gorged on tempura, spring rolls, inari, rice balls and all kinds of goodies..

Second, I went to All-Tomarrow's-Party, which for you who dont know, is a large music festivial on the queen mary and a stage nearby on the shore... which was great because the queen mary is haunted and me and my sisters went down in the hull went ghosting.

Third.... THE LINEUP!! The Shins, Danielson Familie, The Black Heart Procession, Modest Mouse, Built to spill and Sonic Youth...

Other than that, there were alot of vain and pretensious little midgets there... I scared alot of them with a california raisins body-suit that I got from my sister's car...

I'm still tired... I think I'll go take another nap.

Current Music : Danielson Familie - Rally the dominos

Feeling poetic

Today I came out of my house, which was thoroughly closed up... and I saw the brightest white cloud in the sky... it blinded me for a minute but I recooperated...

Seeing that kind of pure light made me feel like an evil little black speck on this dirty planet which is surmounted by a bright sky.... and it kind of made me sad to think that we're killing the sky slowly.... the black billows from the smoke-stacks of the industrial areas.. the arson in riverside... the smog in l.a.

But thats just life..

Current Music : Chemical Brothers - Dig your own hole