pictures or whatever.

Ah. Much better

Dreary grey. Grey of damnation. Hopeless ineffable unswerving indecisive grey.

No more pictures to load, no more tag-board.. just grey. just depressing words on a screen.. maybe some up-lifting moments.. who knows? then grey will have a whole new meaning... black clouds part to reveal their less dreary grey relatives...

Hah.. fourty days and fourty nights I was gone, I just noticed this number when I went to go look it up.... and about 2,000 hits. I never should've said I'd be back at 12,000.. I average 1,000 a month... even without my loyalists I still broke even.

so... the *real* meat of the topic? What was I doing, why am I back, you ask?

I left because I was tired of living in a box and now I'm back in my box again... I really don't care about seeing the world.. thats a low priority to me, its always been a low priority.

Why should I care so much about something I've never seen when there's always going to be more I've never seen- why not start seeing things I've never seen in myself and the shitty little plot of dirt around me, before I go adventuring off to someone else's shitty little plot.

People are funny like that... physical change doesnt constitute any other sort of change. you're in a different place, yipee.

I'm back because I dont care. I quit TS *sniffle* and I did my self analysis.

I've just come to the conclusion that I cant come to a conclusion that easily, so why put my writing on hiatus just because its on the same infernal device that brings my favorite first-person-shooters.

the real development perhaps.. is http://manormouseman.deviantart.com/ Maybe... just maybe.

I don't really care about any of it anymore... life is a collective shrug or sigh.. its there... it continues to dance and sing and convulse without my tiny little epileptic additions... so what does it matter if I am or am not apart of the grand ball of the crap of the world?

it doesnt.

Thats why I'm back, and getting crunk like it does matter.

**p.s. Some of you are missing the tag-board... See at the bottom of this post where it says "comments"? You're allowed to use that.

Current Music : The Streets - Don't you know it?