pictures or whatever.

Honestly
We're not always happy.

I was just thinking now, about how people react whenever I give them a response other than "I'm doing good".. or "I'm doing great"..

When I'm not feeling good, but I want to keep up my facade.. I'll say "I'm great, just a little tired".. which is the truth.

But the simple act of asking how someone's doing has gone from human communication to another formallity that we use to fill blank space with, you guessed it.. blank conversation.

For example:
-- Hi!
-- Hello.
-- Whats up?
-- Not much, you?
-- Not much here either
-- Thats cool
-- How've you been?
-- Good, you?
-- I'm good
-- Thats good to hear
-- Always is.
~

After that, it tapers off into the usual "I've gotta go now" or "How's your mother doing" crap that nobody really thinks much about either.

Does anyone else feel this way? we're all talking and not really speaking anything. I know when I walk up to someone that 90% of the time they're "good" and "not much" is up.

So, surprise the world- I know I have, last several times someone asked me how I was doing, I gave them the most honest response; one time at starbucks there was a girl there, she asked how I was doing and what my order was... and I said "ahh. I'm doing really bad", because it was waaay early in the morning and I felt like dying or hibernating.. but she looked at me like I just fed her dog rat poison.. or shot her little brother.

All-in-all she was a nice person, but the general shock I get whenever I say anything other than "I'm peachy keen, life is roses and puppies all day and all night" people tend to start freaking out..

Maybe its that they've been too busy to consider how THEY'RE doing, and me saying I had a bad day without being a jerk about somehow reflects what they were feeling or thinking, and maybe they wanted to just tell someone.

If you're always saying "good", then it wont mean anything when you REALLY are good.

So be honest, How are you doing?

And to close~ a lemming.

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Your wings are BROKEN and tattered.

You are an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for one reason or another - possibly, you made one tragic mistake that cost you everything, or maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't commit. In any case, you are faithless and joyless. You find no happiness, love, or acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most days are a burden and you wonder when the hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching picture. You are the one that few understand. Those that do know you are likely to love you deeply and wish that they could do something to ease your pain. You are constantly living in memories of better times and a better world. You are hard on yourself and self-critical or self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved, you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite your tainted nature, your soul is breathtakingly beautiful.



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