pictures or whatever.

Everybody's out to get me
But I feel alright.

I'm trudging on, as usual. And with that usual feeling that I could somehow be more gleeful about life.

I know I could, but its too much effort to expend in the longrun: last time I was irrationally exuberant, I tried to commit suicide a few different ways.

So what I'm saying is, in the long-run, forcing yourself to be charitable, personable or hospitible will mess you up if it doesnt come naturally.


Happy chinese new year!

Anyways, I got an article in the mail today, probably the only piece of wanted mail I've ever gotten in my life, aside from replacement nerf parts from hasbro. I had it tucked under my keyboard like a little treasure -,- lest the calamity that is my desk swallow it up.. you can see what I mean.



I just lost those freshly taken pictures of yun gee's card, and my horrendous desk on my harddrive... so give me a few minutes to find them... I'm so pathetic.

*a minute later*

Shit, it was in the directory I was just staring at. I need sleep. Chai tea is helping though~

*added ten minutes later*

My computer is playing tricks on me.. this is intolerable.

And I still have to write a page letter to jesus on why I'm going to stay abstinant. and I'm getting up in 6hours and counting down, depending on whenever I go to bed.

Current Music : K-UCI - World Domination Potluck! [Final Episode 8/29/03]