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The grey area...

Yeah so here's the challenge, think about all of the times you've been indecisive. think of all of the times you put someone off and told them to wait because you where thinking.

Now think of all of the times you've been lead on, strung along, held off, told off, turned down, put up or shushed...

Now, after all of that, think of every time you've done that to anyone else.. look at the indecision from someone else's perspective..

Being apprehensive is one thing, but being indecisive is another.

Have you ever been lead on and felt like that person lied to you?

Well, from their perspective it may've been innocent, but to you it seemed evil..

This is the grey area.. where morallity is relative.. and alot of people get into it and make bad decisions.

what else?

Oh yeah.. this really annoys me, when people go off on rants and talk about grandiose things, but never explain them...

I mean, explain this statement "Never succumb to the pattern known as 'normal' "...

I have nothing against its author for saying it, but he never explained it.. he never elaborated on why being normal is a bad thing...

I'm rather taken to the idea that obedience of order and government is in fact rebellion against succumbing to a pattern known as "abnormal"...

For example.. the whole generation as we know it decides to go out and get "abnormal" and start wearing black clothes, saying whatever they want to whoever they want, and listening to punk rock... big deal... all it means is that everyone's abnormal and no ones unique.

And in fact, rebellion against the norm is so cliche compared to living a simple life with a massive outlook on the world.

What do I mean? I mean living a 'normal life' isnt so great, but living an 'abnormal life' is much worse.. I say live a normal life, but analyze everything around you.

For some living an abnormal life is fine.. some people are just made to shine, but that doesnt restrict them from realizing reality around them and doing something about it..

Where was I? ...oh yeah, anybody can say "Its better to live a life alone rather than live in groups of droning bafoons"... but why? why? why? explain it..

That statement is a hypathetical for-instance.. but why?

In fact if you're a smart person you should be living with idiots, so that you learn faster and gain more.. and give more, etc etc.

hmmm... in other news multiple personallity disorder? I might have it, but not in the sense of me waking up tomarrow thinking I'm a twelve year old girl named angie, No. Something more along the lines of a duality of mind, does that make any sense?; two seperate minds, thinking contrastly and agreeing once in a blue moon.

Now most would simply dismiss this as 'good and evil'.. 'your concience' and 'your human nature'.. but I think its something else.. maybe repressed feelings? scratch that... see, repressed emotions are only repressed by their owner, it isnt as if one day my empathy said "here you go, you cant feel any more".. Nobody can put your emotions off except for you.

So then, I can divide myself.. between the Arrogant Genius and the Tempermental Underacheiver.. well.. I cant really classify both types in two words.. they both have their moments..

So for instance.. most people know me in groups, where I'm usually the center of attention or the highest ranking, praiseworthy.. etc etc...

Thats my 'new' self.. because being at root the tempermental underacheiver I am, I dont deal well with defeat.. so I eclipse that emotion with tons of notariety and praise...

My main gift? Intellect. Soo.... I become the big boisterous genius that can tell anyone off, and always knows what he's saying.

So you see? My original temperment was never repressed by subconcious or by emotional damage, but by a concious decision to make myself the best.

Thank you ladies and gentlemen, I'm getting writers block now.

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