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Brand new since '02.Thursday, July 31
The dookie of the future...
Well.. this post is sort of a transitional thing; it has mostly to do with the differences in generation, and inherited faults. I believe this subject has some signifigance for everyone, and their family. Maybe I wrote this long intro because I felt like I needed to give some setup to it... maybe not..
Here goes...
Today when I got home my mom told me to bring in some coolers for a road trip she's going on... her exact words where "Bring in those coolers and its O.K. not to wash them out"..
OK I said, I can just haul 'em in and then be done with it... so thats what I do..
I leave and sit down... kinda tired.. kinda resting... kinda cranky.. but all-round good.
Then over my music I hear my mom yelling, about something? why would she be coming down the hallway? theres only me and my sister in the bedrooms... so I waited for her to pass...
Then out of nowhere shes in my doorway yelling at me about coolers.. and dog-hair?? anyways... so I take them out on the drive-way and do the washing that she had previously pardoned me of...
So I'm out there washing... and now we get to the meat of the story.. she says "I'm sorry I reacted so harsly about the coolers," which is a totally correct statement, and I love my mom enough to forgive her of some tedious and stupid crap like a cooler argument... but here it comes.. "..BUT.." what is this? after the apology, a clause, a justification.. I didnt even hear her words.. they just faded like the white-noise of the ocean... and then it struck me; I had never heard a single apology from my family in my entire life without a big butt.. er, But. Apologies shouldnt have buts... either you're sorry or you're not.. either you feel remorse or you dont.
I've noticed in myself as well, that I always find a justification.. a reason.. a clause.. "well it wasnt my fault"..
Its my hereditary fault, not from genes.. but from upbringing.
Never underestimate the power of family.
And dont let your buts have butts.
Current Music : Violent Femmes - I held her in my arms
Well.. this post is sort of a transitional thing; it has mostly to do with the differences in generation, and inherited faults. I believe this subject has some signifigance for everyone, and their family. Maybe I wrote this long intro because I felt like I needed to give some setup to it... maybe not..
Here goes...
Today when I got home my mom told me to bring in some coolers for a road trip she's going on... her exact words where "Bring in those coolers and its O.K. not to wash them out"..
OK I said, I can just haul 'em in and then be done with it... so thats what I do..
I leave and sit down... kinda tired.. kinda resting... kinda cranky.. but all-round good.
Then over my music I hear my mom yelling, about something? why would she be coming down the hallway? theres only me and my sister in the bedrooms... so I waited for her to pass...
Then out of nowhere shes in my doorway yelling at me about coolers.. and dog-hair?? anyways... so I take them out on the drive-way and do the washing that she had previously pardoned me of...
So I'm out there washing... and now we get to the meat of the story.. she says "I'm sorry I reacted so harsly about the coolers," which is a totally correct statement, and I love my mom enough to forgive her of some tedious and stupid crap like a cooler argument... but here it comes.. "..BUT.." what is this? after the apology, a clause, a justification.. I didnt even hear her words.. they just faded like the white-noise of the ocean... and then it struck me; I had never heard a single apology from my family in my entire life without a big butt.. er, But. Apologies shouldnt have buts... either you're sorry or you're not.. either you feel remorse or you dont.
I've noticed in myself as well, that I always find a justification.. a reason.. a clause.. "well it wasnt my fault"..
Its my hereditary fault, not from genes.. but from upbringing.
Never underestimate the power of family.
And dont let your buts have butts.
Current Music : Violent Femmes - I held her in my arms
Tuesday, July 22
Somebody give smithie a rose...
You are Agent Smith, from "The Matrix."
No one would ever want to run into you in a
dark alley. Cold as steel, tough as a rock,
things are your way or the highway.
What Matrix Persona Are You?
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Current Music : Am I Evil - Untitled
You are Agent Smith, from "The Matrix."
No one would ever want to run into you in a
dark alley. Cold as steel, tough as a rock,
things are your way or the highway.
What Matrix Persona Are You?
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Current Music : Am I Evil - Untitled
I'm not going to post...
Until I figure out something worth posting....
Current Music : Who am I? - Hardcore; Green Beret [remix]
Until I figure out something worth posting....
Current Music : Who am I? - Hardcore; Green Beret [remix]
Thursday, July 17
Survey says!
1. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others?: A cute nose
2. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: I dont think so... Women are awesome... Men are better leaders.
3. Would you marry for money?: no
4. Have you had braces?: no
5. Do you pluck your eyebrows?: I used to shave them.. then I decided that it was really lame.. and that I'd be able to scare girls off with a unibrow.. so I like myself as I am :D
6. Do you ever cut or hurt yourself?: Used to; I'd take razorblades to my fingertips.
7. When was the last time you had a hickey?: Ah.. 5th grade? I gave it to myself.
8. Could you live without a computer?: Yeah, if I had to.
9. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc..?: Yahoo messenger, AoL messenger and ICQ
10. If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: Alot.... 200+?
11. If you could live in any past time period, which would it be?:1950's?.
12. Do you drink enough water?: Yeah; one cup for every ten pounds of body weight per day ^_^
13. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: I wear shoes in the house... but some days when I'm home all day I'll just go barefoot.
14. What is your favorite fruit?: Pears, Peaches and grapes.
15. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: Wheat; it has more texture and it doesnt get all clumpy and gross on the roof of your mouth.
16. What is your favorite place to visit?: Pacific coast highway and Main ST.
17. What is the last movie you saw?: Shanghai knights.
18. Do you kiss on the first date?: It depends... seeing as I'm really stingey with dating I'd probably kiss on the first date.. because I'd have to know her for awhile before I'd go out with her.
19. Are you photogenic?: always.
20. Do you dream in color or black and white?: Both... sometimes monochrome blue & white and red & black
21. Are you wearing fingernail polish?: Unfortunately, yes. Black.
22. Do you have any dimples?: yes, on the left side of my face.
23. Do you remember being born?: No.
24. Why do you take surveys?: To amuse people who read my page.
25. Do you drink alcohol? No.
26. Did you like or do you like high school?: its ok.
27. What is the most beautiful language?: Well spoken russian.
28. When you are asleep do you like being kissed awake?: I wouldn't know.
29. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: sunsets.
30. Do you want to live to be 100? Sure.. 70 is good.. after that its a down-down-downward spiral.
32. Do you like salty food or sugary food the most?: It depends.. salty is good.. but sometimes its really gross.
33. Is a flat stomach important to you?: Um? in myself or someone else? in either case no.
34. Do you or have you played with a ouija board?: no.
35. Are you loyal?: yes
36. Are you tolerant of other people's beliefs?: Tolerant, yes, acceptant, no.
37. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?: Movie lighting is cool.. but if this is a scandalous question I'd say "lights on"
38. Do you believe in magic?: It depends on your definition of "magic".
39. Do you have nightmares frequently?: Not really; but the potency makes up for it.
40. Do you like your nose?: Yup.
41. Do you like abstract art?: Yeah.. as a backdrop for something.
42. Do you think you can draw well?: nope.
43. Do you listen to music daily?: Yup.
44. Do you like to watch cartoons?: Yes.
45. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?: I don't think I ever believed in Santa(ditto).
46. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet:? geez, like two..
47. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety?:I like the same shoes, but I want a flexible variety so I can wear dressy shoes when I need to. unfortunately I only have two pairs of shoes.
48. Do you write poetry?: Sometimes.
49. Do you snore?: Yes; softly(or so I've been told).
50. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?: All of the above, I toss and turn..
51. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?: Rottweiler... although I dont like either of those dogs.. now a boxer on the other hand... ^__^.
52. Do you lick stamps?: Is that a trick question?.
53. Do you use an electric can opener?: No.
54. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon?: No.
55. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?: It depends...
56. Do you think balding men should shave their heads?: That depends too.. (Geez, alot of these questions are relative)
57. Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed?: Probably.
58. Do you prefer a piano or a violin?: I like the way they both sound when played correctly. but in general those are pansy-ass instruments... Trumpet pride!
59. Are you a sex addict?: nope.
60. Do you know someone who has cancer?: yes; My grandpa had cancer.
61. Do you hunt?: Nah, it'd probably be fun though..
62. Do you like fast food joints, or expensive restaurants?: Expensive resturants are cool if I have money
63. Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?: Art museum.
64. Do you have a middle name?: Yes; Samuel.
65. Are you basically a happy person?: I'm grouchy.. I'm generally happy though..
66. Are you tired?: Right now; yes.
67. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today?: Yup; I'm on my second cup'a joe.
68. Have you ever met anyone off the internet?: Yeah.. this really crazy asian chainsmoker... hahaha.
69. How many phones do you have in your house?: 3, Two cordless and one wallmounted(?).
70. How long is your hair?: 4"(?); it used to be like 10".
71. Do you get along with your parents?: Yeah.
72. What color of eyes do you prefer?: In order.. Light green, Dark blue. Black or grey is sexy but hardly anyone has those..
73. Are you an active person?: Yes.
74. What medications do you take?: Lets see... none currently.. I used to take "stuff".
75. What does your bedroom look like?: Its... evolving.. theres crap everywhere and I've been putting off dusting and vacuuming in anticipation of my new desk's arrival.... blah..
Current music : Microsoft optical-wheel mouse - Clickity Clickity Click
1. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others?: A cute nose
2. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: I dont think so... Women are awesome... Men are better leaders.
3. Would you marry for money?: no
4. Have you had braces?: no
5. Do you pluck your eyebrows?: I used to shave them.. then I decided that it was really lame.. and that I'd be able to scare girls off with a unibrow.. so I like myself as I am :D
6. Do you ever cut or hurt yourself?: Used to; I'd take razorblades to my fingertips.
7. When was the last time you had a hickey?: Ah.. 5th grade? I gave it to myself.
8. Could you live without a computer?: Yeah, if I had to.
9. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc..?: Yahoo messenger, AoL messenger and ICQ
10. If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: Alot.... 200+?
11. If you could live in any past time period, which would it be?:1950's?.
12. Do you drink enough water?: Yeah; one cup for every ten pounds of body weight per day ^_^
13. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: I wear shoes in the house... but some days when I'm home all day I'll just go barefoot.
14. What is your favorite fruit?: Pears, Peaches and grapes.
15. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: Wheat; it has more texture and it doesnt get all clumpy and gross on the roof of your mouth.
16. What is your favorite place to visit?: Pacific coast highway and Main ST.
17. What is the last movie you saw?: Shanghai knights.
18. Do you kiss on the first date?: It depends... seeing as I'm really stingey with dating I'd probably kiss on the first date.. because I'd have to know her for awhile before I'd go out with her.
19. Are you photogenic?: always.
20. Do you dream in color or black and white?: Both... sometimes monochrome blue & white and red & black
21. Are you wearing fingernail polish?: Unfortunately, yes. Black.
22. Do you have any dimples?: yes, on the left side of my face.
23. Do you remember being born?: No.
24. Why do you take surveys?: To amuse people who read my page.
25. Do you drink alcohol? No.
26. Did you like or do you like high school?: its ok.
27. What is the most beautiful language?: Well spoken russian.
28. When you are asleep do you like being kissed awake?: I wouldn't know.
29. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: sunsets.
30. Do you want to live to be 100? Sure.. 70 is good.. after that its a down-down-downward spiral.
32. Do you like salty food or sugary food the most?: It depends.. salty is good.. but sometimes its really gross.
33. Is a flat stomach important to you?: Um? in myself or someone else? in either case no.
34. Do you or have you played with a ouija board?: no.
35. Are you loyal?: yes
36. Are you tolerant of other people's beliefs?: Tolerant, yes, acceptant, no.
37. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?: Movie lighting is cool.. but if this is a scandalous question I'd say "lights on"
38. Do you believe in magic?: It depends on your definition of "magic".
39. Do you have nightmares frequently?: Not really; but the potency makes up for it.
40. Do you like your nose?: Yup.
41. Do you like abstract art?: Yeah.. as a backdrop for something.
42. Do you think you can draw well?: nope.
43. Do you listen to music daily?: Yup.
44. Do you like to watch cartoons?: Yes.
45. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?: I don't think I ever believed in Santa(ditto).
46. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet:? geez, like two..
47. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety?:I like the same shoes, but I want a flexible variety so I can wear dressy shoes when I need to. unfortunately I only have two pairs of shoes.
48. Do you write poetry?: Sometimes.
49. Do you snore?: Yes; softly(or so I've been told).
50. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?: All of the above, I toss and turn..
51. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?: Rottweiler... although I dont like either of those dogs.. now a boxer on the other hand... ^__^.
52. Do you lick stamps?: Is that a trick question?.
53. Do you use an electric can opener?: No.
54. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon?: No.
55. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?: It depends...
56. Do you think balding men should shave their heads?: That depends too.. (Geez, alot of these questions are relative)
57. Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed?: Probably.
58. Do you prefer a piano or a violin?: I like the way they both sound when played correctly. but in general those are pansy-ass instruments... Trumpet pride!
59. Are you a sex addict?: nope.
60. Do you know someone who has cancer?: yes; My grandpa had cancer.
61. Do you hunt?: Nah, it'd probably be fun though..
62. Do you like fast food joints, or expensive restaurants?: Expensive resturants are cool if I have money
63. Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?: Art museum.
64. Do you have a middle name?: Yes; Samuel.
65. Are you basically a happy person?: I'm grouchy.. I'm generally happy though..
66. Are you tired?: Right now; yes.
67. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today?: Yup; I'm on my second cup'a joe.
68. Have you ever met anyone off the internet?: Yeah.. this really crazy asian chainsmoker... hahaha.
69. How many phones do you have in your house?: 3, Two cordless and one wallmounted(?).
70. How long is your hair?: 4"(?); it used to be like 10".
71. Do you get along with your parents?: Yeah.
72. What color of eyes do you prefer?: In order.. Light green, Dark blue. Black or grey is sexy but hardly anyone has those..
73. Are you an active person?: Yes.
74. What medications do you take?: Lets see... none currently.. I used to take "stuff".
75. What does your bedroom look like?: Its... evolving.. theres crap everywhere and I've been putting off dusting and vacuuming in anticipation of my new desk's arrival.... blah..
Current music : Microsoft optical-wheel mouse - Clickity Clickity Click
Tuesday, July 15
How about some poop on a stick?
My computer is down. I dont like to post on this one. I dont like the 'new' blogger...
Bah...
I'll post more later when I get my computer back... sayyy thursday??
Download this song! Ima Robot - 12=3
Current Music : Ima Robot - 12=3
My computer is down. I dont like to post on this one. I dont like the 'new' blogger...
Bah...
I'll post more later when I get my computer back... sayyy thursday??
Download this song! Ima Robot - 12=3
Current Music : Ima Robot - 12=3
Monday, July 7
Stir it up
FIRE is your chinese symbol!
What Chinese Symbol Are You?
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Current Music : Steve Blevo - Cyborg Blevin
FIRE is your chinese symbol!
What Chinese Symbol Are You?
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Current Music : Steve Blevo - Cyborg Blevin
Annnd here comes the pitch!
You represent... insanity.
You're quite a quirky little creature. You're
emotions are varying. You may appear childish
and innocent, but you have a tendency to freak
out. You're incredibly random, but it's good
to be unique. People know you're an odd one,
but you certainly don't mind.
What feeling do you represent?
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Current Music : Rage against the machine - Guerilla Radio
You represent... insanity.
You're quite a quirky little creature. You're
emotions are varying. You may appear childish
and innocent, but you have a tendency to freak
out. You're incredibly random, but it's good
to be unique. People know you're an odd one,
but you certainly don't mind.
What feeling do you represent?
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Current Music : Rage against the machine - Guerilla Radio
Saturday, July 5
So....
That camp I went to, it was a church camp.. and I dont know why I'm so embarrassed to say that...
Yes, I go to church..
Yes, I'm a christian...
Yes, I read the bible..
Yes, I'm a jesus-freak/religious fanatic..
Yes I said the J word... jesus...
Yes, I enjoyed that camp...
Yes, I like chillin' with the son of God...
I dont know why that seems so hard to say. I'm not going to cater to everyone anymore by ommiting what I am, so my writing seems more in-line with what they think..
And I dont think I'm going to hide anymore, because I dont think people will want to hear what my opinion is...
Forget the self-censorship..
Current Music : Standby - Final Fantasy 8; "Desperados"
That camp I went to, it was a church camp.. and I dont know why I'm so embarrassed to say that...
Yes, I go to church..
Yes, I'm a christian...
Yes, I read the bible..
Yes, I'm a jesus-freak/religious fanatic..
Yes I said the J word... jesus...
Yes, I enjoyed that camp...
Yes, I like chillin' with the son of God...
I dont know why that seems so hard to say. I'm not going to cater to everyone anymore by ommiting what I am, so my writing seems more in-line with what they think..
And I dont think I'm going to hide anymore, because I dont think people will want to hear what my opinion is...
Forget the self-censorship..
Current Music : Standby - Final Fantasy 8; "Desperados"
I have returned.
In more ways than one..
Today, I got home from summer-camp which was good, I think I speak for everyone when I say we all had a great time.
Tonight, I got back on videogames, after my 40-day fast... I pretty much had no clue how to play anymore :D
dahh.. dats all.. I'm tired...
Goodnight
Current Music : Standby - Final Fantasy 8; "Desperados"
In more ways than one..
Today, I got home from summer-camp which was good, I think I speak for everyone when I say we all had a great time.
Tonight, I got back on videogames, after my 40-day fast... I pretty much had no clue how to play anymore :D
dahh.. dats all.. I'm tired...
Goodnight
Current Music : Standby - Final Fantasy 8; "Desperados"
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